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It’s hard… (a post from the past) May 9, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Lauren Warner @ 1:18 am

It’s hard seeing your parent suffer. Not being able to help, to alleviate the pain, to fix what’s wrong. I know the traditional role is that the parent should be doing that for the child but when a parent is the one suffering, it’s hard to have to sit by and be helpless.That’s how I feel right now. My mother is very sick. She can barely process oxygen and she’s in intense pain because of GI issues. It’s heartbreaking to hear her say “I don’t want to do this anymore”. It makes me cry when I hear how much she is suffering.

Once in a while her smile or orneriness will break through and I’ll see the Mommy I know but for the most part she is just in a lot of pain and there’s not much any of us can do besides hold her hand and wait for the doctors.

It’s so hard when you can’t understand the medical staff because of their thick accents. I have every fait that these men and women know what they’re doing but when you can’t understand what they are explaining to you, you can’t help but feel completely lost. It just adds to my feelings of helplessness. If my dad weren’t here I’m not sure what I’d do. I truly cannot understand most of what they are saying.

I try not to think about what’s going on. I know I’m an emotional eater and tonight I gave in to some chocolate peanut butter ice cream. I didn’t eat all of it but I did have some. I was thinking with every bite that the reason I was eating it was for comfort, but I really didn’t care.

The hotel we have found ourselves living in has a room with a bicycle and three treadmills, but it’s always locked. There is also a minuscule pool and a hot tub that will scald your skin off your body. I try to get a walk on the beach every day but today it was raining so there was no walk. I did get in the pool and do some leg exercises and some crunches in the hotel room. Does that count?

The days are going by in a blur and I can hardly keep up with what day it is or whether it’s day or night. Every room, the ICU room and the hotel room, has light blocking curtains so no light gets in to tell us if it’s 10am or 10pm. The only thing that keeps me somewhat aware of the time are the phone calls from Aaron and the girls.

I miss my husband and my beautiful girls. It’s so hard to go through something like this and not have the man I love beside me to hang onto. I love him for going to school to better our family and I completely understand the need to go to class and I support it 100% but I can’t help but wish it were spring break or summer vacation. I miss Samantha’s jabbering and stubbornness and I miss Madison’s sweet smiles in the mornings. I miss Aaron being contrary just for the sake of being contrary, although he tries to keep that up over the phone.

I love my friends and family for praying for us and encouraging us.

 

The Dress Project May 7, 2010

Filed under: blog,clothes,samantha — Lauren Warner @ 5:52 pm

Ladies (and gentlemen?), I am going to attempt to sew a dress for my monkey daughter Samantha.

It’s all her fault. Gillian, from Dried Figs and Wooden Spools, has made it look easy enough even for me.

Dried Figs and Wooden Spools

The patternless dress by Gillian.

I’ll post pics of my version as soon as it’s done. Hopefully next week. We shall see.

 

Running April 16, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Lauren Warner @ 7:13 pm

Aaron tells me about two hours ago that he would like me to come watch his 5k race at Southern Adventist University. Like a good wife I showed up and came out to the starting tent.

A friend of ours helped organize the race and told me I was sitting in a perfectly safe place.

I watched the runners line up. Directly in front of me. I still hoped they wouldn’t be aboutto trample me.

Then they began.

An I shot a few pics, still hoping not to get run over. Then I ducked as a guy jumped over me. And I kept my head down.

Thanks Darin.

Pic to come later.

 

I hope you dance…

Filed under: dance,samantha,video — Lauren Warner @ 4:53 pm

My oldest daughter is constantly making me crazy and making me laugh. She reminds me daily to slow down, smell the dandelions, not to inhale before blowing the dandelion seeds, to wear my sunglasses upside down and to “EAT!”. Last night she reminded me to dance. I love you Samantha!

 

Books…anyone want? April 12, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — Lauren Warner @ 9:46 pm

I have a couple of design/computer books up for grabs.

Adobe Illustrator CS2, Flash 8, Dreamweaver 8, InDesign CS2, Photoshop Tips & Tricks, Illustration, Graphic Design Solutions, Idea Index….

If you would like any/all just let me know. Free. If I need to ship them all I ask is for the cost of shipping via PayPal.

Thanks!

Depending on what else I find, you may get a couple of extras if you want any of them. 😉

 

I think I can get it….

Filed under: Uncategorized — Lauren Warner @ 9:41 pm

Madison is slowly getting more control over her appendages. She gets such a concentrated look on her face, though, that it makes me laugh.

“I know that goes in my mouth….”
 

Aaahhhh!!!

Filed under: Uncategorized — Lauren Warner @ 9:25 pm

I think I’m slowing losing my mind. 🙂

For those of you who don’t know (and who care) we have moved into our own apartment on Prospect Church Road. I’m not posting the address because I might not want you to come! Text me if you’d like to visit. It’s a disaster area right now. However, if you’d like to help haul some boxes and such I’m happy to pay in brownies or dinner.

It’s not a big apartment but it’s ours. We have a tiny little living room, a nice patio, two good sized bedrooms, a strange shaped bathroom and a large laundry room. We are minutes from family and friends (really not any further away than before).

Samantha is having a hard time with the transition. Poor kid keeps waking up in the middle of the night and running down the hall in her sleep. Last night she was basically running into the walls and crying. Makes me sad but I kinda have to chuckle. She looks so disgruntled.

I have so much help. So many things going on.

Helper #1 (who drove me to the Excedrin mentioned below)

Helper #1 (aka Samantha) had had horns today. I understand that the transition is a challenge for a toddler but is it OK for me to stick her in one of our empty boxes for a while? Maybe ship her to her Aunt Heather in Taiwan? She drove me to both Extreme Moose Tracks ice cream and Excedrin today. Nap time was enough to drive me to …. the loony bin.

Helper #2

Helper #2 (aka Madison), on the other hand, went right to sleep and slept for 2 hours straight without a peep. Now, if only I could get them to coordinate their naps…


Such are the fantasies of a mother…

So, on to the tour of the destruction…

Anybody want some boxes? That’s part of our patio.

That’s the disaster that I have to turn into a living room.

And…the kitchen table.

And…the laundry room.